What I reap is what I sow? How true can tt be?

Well well.. My off-day is finally here.. Been a long wait.. I decided to give myself a treat=> Relax n not doing work tonite.. hehe.. tt's y i m here blogging.. N e next big treat is a long run at punggol park tml morning at 7am till 9am.. Really looking forward to it.. But but I m still having a slight flu.. Hope it wont affect my performance n at least let mi complete 5km.. Lucky I didnt promise my collegue e SPCA run at Macritche.. A bit exhausted after a long week of work, feeling a bit sleepy.. But i will hold thru, becoz I want to watch my fav korean drama-> "Xia Ri Xiang Qi" It is a tragedy love story between two complete strangers till they met with an immersed connection within their heart. Although it is quite tragic, I would like to experience this kind of strong love. This is the kind of love I seek, always there for each other even not physically. I dare not dream it might happen, I could only let it fall into hands of the Creator to make things happen. Uncle MK asked me the same question again-> "R u sure u r not attached? Always tot u r.." That kind of pressure flushed my body once more. It is not a question about how come no guy want me, it is a question about why I cant find my right guy. What is the definition of a right guy? Is it the time factor or it is juz fate-destiny playing games with me? Once I thought maybe this guy is for me, time proved me wrong or I juz cant accept the person? The problem lies with me.. I want no handsome idol or the rich bachelor.. All I want is a guy who can truely understands me and be there for me.. Is it tt hard? It has been tiring thinking like that.. I need a break or I rested too long? I suddenly want no more..