Holidays are almost here~

Blogging again? I have been stagnating for quite some time. Juicy news? Nah. Exciting adventures? Nah too. I just want to share my thoughts back here again.

Things have been moving quite smoothly all these while. I have already got the notice that I could graduate in July 2007 if nothing goes wrong. I got my internship placement at Prima recently. I passed my genetics and chemistry B. I have been blessed with more friends this semester. I have grown to love God more, ocz I drifted away from Him since last year. Now it is already September, the year of 2006 is almost coming to an end. I also realised how fast time flies this time, stepping into my 22nd year really soon.

What's my direction in life? What's the purpose laid for me? What is my ultimate goal? What have I accomplished so far? These issues have always been bugging me. Sometimes I thought I knew, sometimes I realised I don't. Sometimes I get frustrated coz of them, sometimes I just let God guide me. Well, one thing for sure is that at the end of the day, I just want to be happy.

Yesterday, I got back my chemistry test. I was not really happy. I wondered why. I passed but I am not happy. I thought I should be happy coz I am really bad with chemistry B. But I think my perfectionist personality really taking the hell out of me. When I pass, I want to get good. When I got good, I want to get excellent. Though my mum thinks that the drive to be even better is good for me, I think it is not making me happy. Sometimes it makes me really miserable, like yesterday, I was so sad until I went to bake muffins out of the blue. I just want to be contented. Why can't I? Trained to be like that since young? Maybe.