Congrats to David! haha.. was waiting for e results.. so anticipating.. (machiam I noe him..) haha.. Anyway today was a fine thursday.. I gave my collegues a Mac treat.. Well it was delivery service therefore food wasnt in e top condition.. haha.. I really hope tt we can still be in contact even though we arent e bestest frenz.. Memories.. Really nice to be workin the whole bunch of supervisors, technicians & assistants.. Life was quite stress-free.. Enjoyed my work n had alot of goody food tt I nv get a chance to eat on the plane.. haha..

Been thinkin abt myself.. What m i? Sensitive or juz jealous? Outgoing or juz sporty? listener or juz wan to be there? Workaholic or juz running away from reality? born-leader or a forced leader? creative or juz style? Many things ran through my mind after the committee meeting ytd.. I was scared in fact, which I didnt admit.. I all along knew tt I shouldnt be in the committe.. I feared that I might not be up to the std.. N since e day I lead the parachute game, it confirmed my fears.. N after hearing those ns guys, I was literally freaked out in my heart.. If I cant lead a good example, how can I convince them? I guess I m losing my confidence.. It's too late to back out n it is v irresponsible to.. I really pray that God will lead me to a new path where I can find myself again and give me strength to overcome my fears.. I need someone who is able to guide me through all this.. God, are u still there?

Disappointment.. It was really saddening.. My frenz seem to drift away from me.. I m so insignificant in their hearts.. Once, they made me so happy that they wan to meet up.. But now, they seemed so busy to even care that I m still living in this world.. I do understand that each of us got our own commitments.. But is it an excuse to shoo away? Luckily some are juz great.. Frenz forever if u tink u r one..