Been some time since i last blogged.. Always so busy since sch starts.. Sometimes I duno wat I m busy on, when e rest of my frenz seem to be idling away.. haha.. maybe not exactly idle but they sure hav more time than mi.. I always say tt I hate ppl to say they hav no time but when it comes to mi, tis excuse seemed perfect.. Of coz i try not to use it often.. Becoz no time is NOT an excuse!!!! Time is managed by yourself.. It depends on who, what, where & how u wan to give it to..

Juz had a sad xmas eve tis yr.. Didnt get wat I always wanted.. Well come to tink abt it, I find myself quite stupid to hav kept myself busy at home tt day.. I shld hav gone somewhere to celebrate xmas.. But I didnt, I locked myself at home n kept myself really really busy.. Even my frenz called n called n yet I didnt hear.. Funny eh? Busy wif wat? Moppin floor, packin my room, ironing clothes, watching tv and doing my cross-stitch(I want to complete by 31 dec!!!).. Nearly clean up my whole hse.. I cant even sleep well tt day.. Actually I was not in such bad mood in the morning.. But as time goes, it got worse.. I juz couldnt tok myself to accept it.. It is so clear tt I had been "running" away.. Really draining mi.. Xmas day was much better.. I brought myself to meet poly frenz.. Tried to put on smiles in front of them.. Had gifts exchanges n really had a better mood after tt..

Now a bit lost in my mind.. Trying hard to get it back again.. Maybe it will take days.. or weeks.. even years.. I wondered how long I had been like tt.. 2 yrs or even more.. I can only put my trust in the Lord and hope He will lead me the way out.. Only God knows the way..