No one really understands me.. Including myself!

Recently my blogs look weird.. They all seem to be stuff tt happened ytd or long ago.. I tot blogs should be a write-up of daily events?? Haha I duno..

Anyway, I went ahead to run with clar & novi.. But I think I am the only one who actually ran ytd.. I think they prefer gym?? But Princes Park is surely big! I think it feels like a round in Bedok Reservoir.. Haha.. But I wan to go run again next week before winter comes.. Feel sporty these days.. And I am going for my 1st step class on Mon with them.. LORAINE LIM!! Don't be lazy, come along!! Haha.. Let's relax a bit.. Forget abt food chem for the moment.. =P But I can't forget Stirk & Dr. Said for the moment~ Their papers weigh so much..

Sometimes I wonder it is ppl's expectations or it is just me.. People always like me to do things they like to see.. If I don't, they think I am being rebellious or I should choose the "right" way.. But sorry, I won't change for anyone and never gonna be that case!! If can't accept, then too bad.. Reflect on your own life before you come and criticise mine.. Even if I do change, no one ever bothers.. Because it is a "should change" thing..

Sometimes I feel stupid, trying too hard.. All I want is a simple life and do things that I am happy about.. Reality is so so harsh.. Nowhere I seem to fit in.. Active & fun-loving?? Not me, coz I get tired easily.. Happy & contented? Never in my life, happy maybe but not contented.. Smart & studious? studious maybe, but not a tiny bitzy smartness in me.. YA! I know where I am gonna be, my own lala-land... NO ENTRY to Anyone but ME!

I don't want to be self-centred~ If only, ppl accept me for who I am.. I already adapt to ppl but no one appreciated..




Ytd, thanks to Wei Hong for coming over to my place so late.. Poor thing, gotta go grampians next day, still come & help my hsemates settle the internet.. Hehe.. Too bad, who ask u to stay so near my hse.. Ok la, don't say I m not friend enough, I let u go my lab to print notes kkz.. Haha..

Next wk, we r going Cafe Notturno for good cakes at Lygon st.. haha.. So excited.. But 1st, I muz study in library for a few solid hours.. Scared of the two papers.. Haha.. High expectations again..

Later at noon, I am gonna meet Est & Alex.. Both gals are from my sec sch.. Too bad, ah siew is not free to join us coz of her honours proj.. Poor gal.. To ah siew: We'll meet up again with u ok?????

tt's all for now.. Enough grumpy stuff..