Lost in the present. Found in the past. Search for the future.

Why is time passing so slow for my last 2 papers?? It is such a torture.. Not that I am super prepared for the papers, but I just want them to get done and over with. I am 100.1% sick of studying. Sometimes I will be thinking what's the point. People tell me: "Got better future." "Earn more money." "Have better knowledge grasp." But when you are surrounded by a bunch of super smart people, it becomes so hard. How to compete for a better future if they are so much smarter than me? How to earn more money when all of them earn away all your money? How to get more knowledge when my brain can't absorb as much as them? What the **?? That's life.

All I have been asking for is a simple, happy and contented life. Why is it so hard to get? The simpler the things you want, the harder it is to get. It is indirectly proportional. It is easier to earn money to get an expensive LV bag than getting "price"-less happiness for life. See my point? Haiz~

Today is already friday.. Should I thank God it is friday? Maybe I should. But friday is bad, it is 2 days to Biochem and 4 days to Analytical Techniques paper. It is only good that coz it sounds nearer that my dear is gonna be in Melb with me in 8 days' time. Heez! Happiness** short-lived but treasured**

What am I searching for? My faith is failing but I still remember there is just one God~ Sometimes faith is personal but fellowship is important too. But I don't see it anymore.

My house is so so so so x 10 to the power of 6 DIRTY!! 4 other people is sort of using the house one way or another but no one bothers to keep it clean! Sh*t manz.. The dustbin was so terrible just now, leaking oil, freaking smelly.. And I, I repeat "I" was the one who cleared and cleaned it all up!! Haiz.. Why ah? Should I be glad that I am moving out soon? But when I meet a clean freak(oops=P), I think I will be the one paranoid.